"close my eyes, and hold my heart...

...cover me and make me something, change this something normal into something beautiful. "

Ah, you guys, life has taken some interesting turns here in the last week or so. God and I had a really great talk a few days ago in which He said somethings that I needed to hear. He amazes me when He does that. Sometimes we fly blind and have to trust and just go with it, and sometimes He is so blatant that we can't ignore Him anymore. This was one of those times for me. He told me that it's time for me to deal with a lot of things in my life that keep me from Him and from following Him. I'm so famous for always wanting to be in control, and because of this I get it in my head that I can handle everything, and in doing so I step in front of God and go it alone. He's reeled me back in, and none to late. (His timing, after all, is perfect)

There is redemption in most things. This one particular thing that I must face at this time is going to be excruciating. I know He is with me, and as the scripture puts it: what do I have to fear? The answer is of course, nothing. He has it all in control and so often I have to be reminded of that. I get overwhelmed by thoughts and doubts. If you guys want to take a second in your prayers and add one for me -- that would be awesome. I'm going to need it.

I have had to repeat my own theory of hope to myself several times. I also must believe there is redemption in this situation. I've already been blessed enough to see one aspect in which someone else can benefit from this (thank you Jesus).

Now, I have been going with my friend Heather to feed her horses. She has four, three boys and one girl. The girl is not very nice. But, the biggest and I believe she said oldest is Bo. He came right up to me the first time I was out there and loved on me. It was the coolest thing in the world, he's HUGE! I'm not kidding, this horse is so humongous he makes me nervous, well he used to. I've been going and helping a little but staying out of the way for most of it. It's so cool to be exposed to this part of country living. I mean I've never even really ridden a horse, and it's something I know I'd really enjoy. I've been inspired. There is such beauty in these gentle creatures, for something that is so powerful and so regal to be so loving is astounding to me. So often in life we see people walk around with an attitude of being powerful, and we see it reflected in their actions and their words. To be around an animal that could mow me down and not think twice about it, come to me and nuzzle me is so refreshing. It inspires me and it also renews something in my spirit.

Tomorrow there will be ample pictures of these sweet horsies.

For now though it is late, and I must sleep.



"Maybe we can stay, until the last drop of water flows under the bridge."
~Jars of Clay